I always get ideas in my head about really good posts on here and when it finally comes down to actually writing out, I get writers block. I always want to make sure I get what Im trying to say across in the right way. I have the hardest time showing my emotions, let alone, writing about them. So here it goes, Im gonna try to blog through my emotions.
As I read through others blogs, I realize, this is not real life. Life isnt always about the happy times. We wouldnt know the good times without the bad. I want to read a blog that isnt afraid to show people what life is really about, happy or sad. I want to get inspiration from others when I need it the most. That is why I am posting about the hardest goodbye for me...
Looking back, the past two years (almost) have flown by. But on June 25, 2008 I thought that time stood still. I think I laid in bed for most of the day, with Steph trying to convince me to get up and atleast shower...ew. I couldnt stand the thought of getting up, going out or even talking to anyone. All I wanted to do was sleep so that time would go faster. I always told myself that I would never send off a missionary. I obviously didnt learn too well from watching my sisters heartbreak. For those that havent had a missionary, there is no way to explain the emptyness you feel in heart. I was happy to be there for him and to support him but never knew how difficult that it would be. Ill admit that I screamed when I got my first letter from him in the mail. There is no words to explain how I feel each time I get a letter. I am so proud of him for making the decision to go on a mission but it still hurts to not be with him; to put your love on hold. Thankfully, being apart gets easier with time. I still have hard days every once in a while where all I want is to just speak to him. Lucky for me, I only have 50 days till my heart is whole again. Till I get to see his smile. Till I get to laugh with him. Till we get to be together again. I dont know what I did to deserve this amazing man but I am grateful for his worthiness to serve a mission and for showing me the difference between the good things in life and the bad...
3 comments:
Dear Luce,
You are the bestest ever! You have been so patient and supportive and Gareth is so lucky as he is too and you guys will have the most amazing relationship! I love you to the care bears and back!
Oh how I love this... What a sweet girl you are Lyss. You have been so faithful and patient, and it soon will pay off! I've never known two people more meant to be! I'm so glad you will get your happily ever after soon! Love you!
Man I'm so sad, I commented on this last night and it's gone. YOu are so great with this post at being self aware. Thats great insight for yourself. I love the honesty in this post and the realness. I love you , Mom
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